Desert Summer

27 Sep

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The middle east heat in June is scorching. Sandwiched in the humidity of the wind and steam heat of the cement – this is what I have imagined it to be, this is what a middle east country should feel like. I was not disappointed at all.

Some days are easy, some days are not and when its not, I like to walk it all away.

There are about a thousand steps from the  office to the nearest bus station, I can take a train though, but life seems so easy that way. I take that thousand steps instead and learn a lot along the way. That thousand steps takes about 15 minutes before I reach the station and from that 15 minutes, I was able to write a 15 page book of random thoughts that are slowly forgotten like the changing colors of the sky when sun is settling down.

When I am settled in my seat, I try to remember them.

That time when you think about the mundane and the banal things in life and make a choice. And at times it will all boil down to intuition, the good kind, where you know that everything you will do – from small to big things are all part of this predestined now and that it matters somehow no matter how it might turn out. And right then and there, the bus stop and you’re home.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Empathy exam

7 Sep

“Empathy isn’t just remembering to say that must really be hard—it’s figuring out how to bring difficulty into the light so it can be seen at all. Empathy isn’t just listening, it’s asking the questions whose answers need to be listened to. Empathy requires inquiry as much as imagination. Empathy requires knowing you know nothing. Empathy means acknowledging a horizon of context that extends perpetually beyond what you can see:”The Empathy Exams

weekend

16 Mar

updated as of 12/22/2016

I found myself rolling over a crazy weekday, although I am wholeheartedly on it, my strength is never enough to last for another day and so.. Thank God its Friday 🙂

I love that smell of mornings when breakfast is cooked slowly, without a rush and sunshine is still cool enough that you can lay for a moment still in bed and never think about anything else except for your well deserved rest and how to spend it… Thank God its a holiday 🙂

This is the little time, for the so many things to do, meanwhile, I am endearingly thinking about:

– scuba diving – (done 🙂 it was before my husband and I got married and I’m not doing it again)

– beaching – (have done it quite often before winter)

– update my wordpress and finally get that domain – (I’m still thinking about it!)

– use a slow phone so I cannot use social media often (for a start) – (my husband got me a BBM Z10 as a present at my 30th bday, not bad though – i liked it! since my other android phone still works)

– sew more – (always have, always will <3)

– write more (this is a good start) – (hmmmn!, is this consider writing?)

– drink water often – (I have to now, baby needs it)

– dream reachable dreams (there;s no way I’m going to Mars, other countries maybe) – (JAPAN!)

– get a new electric organ (as in piano) – (maybe when we get our own house, sooon…)

– draw a little (maybe) – (this, I have to give up now, but, we’ll never know right?)

– color my hair – (I can’t, not until the baby is born)

– limit the use of jeans – (I own only 1 now – the one given to me by my sister in law and I have no plans of wearing them again)

– sleep early – (because my husband is strict with sleep, except for weekends)

– think about other things to add up to this list…. 😉

 

The Vow

28 Dec

To the man whom I will love forever. ❤

the best of me

5 Nov

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That’s why I loved being with you. We could do the simplest things, like toss starfish into the ocean and share a burger and talk and even then I knew that I was fortunate. Because you were the first guy who wasn’t constantly trying to impress me. You accepted who you were, but more than that, you accepted me for me. And nothing else mattered — not my family or your family or anyone else in the world. it was just us.”

“You’ll make mistakes and struggle like everyone, but when you are with the right person, you’ll almost perfect joy, like you are the luckiest person who ever lived. And that means you’ll love and be loved…. and in the end, nothing else really matters.”

-excerpt from “The best of me”

spiral sunset

4 Nov

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“If I’m loud, it’s because I’m above the wave and if you can’t hear me, it’s because I’m under it. And I never want you to worry because the nature of a wave, is to pass. I’m not being quiet. I’m just under this wave.”-iwrotethisforyou

The curtains ruffled gently as summer’s breeze come and go, I hardly notice the passing afternoon slowly drifting. I miss these simple days, the before meal yawns, the wasting time over a favorite cartoon show and the way summer makes me feel fine and dandy. Things usually comes in nicely, sometimes in fancy paper bags, little cute boxes and hand me downs that might come from lola’s closet. There are grown up conversations in between and pastry ingredients scattering around the kitchen table because there are still other things to do, as always been every morning.

It’s days like these, when everything is in spiral, slow and unsure and all I really want to do is watch the sunset.

summer trail

23 Apr

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It’s been a while since I perfectly pitch the words to describe moments passing like dazzling sunsets, fluffy clouds and azure sky; every radiant combination of colors telling its own story and perhaps just there for a view for passersby. It would have been so nice to witness a morning glory from where I stand  that day, but morning glories are rare phenomenon nevertheless that mid-day river of clouds has been a beautiful view….

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